No Christmas Celebration For Me


By Jueseppi B.

 

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I have tried to be cheerful and get into the “Christmas Spirit“. I have decorated trees and strung lights for some elderly and disabled neighbors back in the states. I played all my favorite Christmas songs, over & over. I Tried telling myself this was a Christmas just like any other.

 

It’s not.

 

I have not stopped crying, at some point during each day, since December 14th, 2012. I have no control over the flow of unwanted tears.

 

These 27 families will share no joy, no happiness, no spirit of the holiday season……

 

- Charlotte Bacon, 2/22/06, female (6).

 

- Daniel Barden, 9/25/05, male (7).

 

- Rachel Davino, 7/17/83, female (29).

 

- Olivia Engel, 7/18/06, female (6).

 

- Josephine Gay, 12/11/05, female (7).

 

- Ana M. Marquez-Greene, 04/04/06, female (6).

 

- Dylan Hockley, 3/8/06, male (6).

 

- Dawn Hochsprung, 06/28/65, female (47)

 

- Madeleine F. Hsu, 7/10/06, female (6).

 

- Catherine V. Hubbard, 6/08/06, female (6).

 

- Chase Kowalski, 10/31/05, male (7).

 

- Jesse Lewis, 6/30/06, male (6).

 

- James Mattioli , 3/22/06, male (6).

 

- Grace McDonnell, 12/04/05, female (7).

 

- Anne Marie Murphy, 07/25/60, female (52).

 

- Emilie Parker, 5/12/06, female (6).

 

- Jack Pinto, 5/06/06, male (6).

 

- Noah Pozner, 11/20/06, male (6).

 

- Caroline Previdi, 9/07/06, female (6).

 

- Jessica Rekos, 5/10/06, female (6).

 

- Avielle Richman, 10/17/06, female (6).

 

- Lauren Rousseau, 6/1982, female (30).

 

- Mary Sherlach, 2/11/56, female (56).

 

- Victoria Soto, 11/04/85, female (27).

 

- Benjamin Wheeler, 9/12/06, male (6).

 

- Allison N. Wyatt, 7/03/06, female (6).

 

-Nancy J. Lanza, (52)

 

-Adam Lanza, (20)

 

I just can not find a happy place knowing that in Newtown, Connecticut, there is a deep pain that can never be eased or erased.

 

For some reason this massacre inside Sandy Hook Elementary School has done things to me that the other massacres have not.

 

Mother Jones says:

“Since 1982, there have been at least 62 mass murders (massacres) carried out with firearms across the country, with the killings unfolding in 30 states from Massachusetts to Hawaii.

 

Of the 142 guns possessed by the killers, more than three quarters were obtained legally. The arsenal included dozens of assault weapons and semiautomatic handguns.

 

Half of the cases involved school or workplace shootings (12 and 19, respectively); the other 31 cases took place in locations including shopping malls, restaurants, government buildings, and military bases. Forty four of the killers were white males. Only one of them was a woman.

 

The average age of the killers was 35, though the youngest among them was a mere 11 years old. A majority were mentally ill—and many displayed signs of it before setting out to kill. Mass murders represent only a sliver of America’s overall gun violence.”

 

A very special Hat Tip/Shout Out to Mother Jones and their article “A Guide to Mass Shootings in America”, which is where I found the above listed statistics. Please check out their full article at Mother Jones.

 

 

Needless to say, I can not stop thinking about America’s gun problems, and I can not stop feeling exactly what the friends, families and loved ones who lost human life in Newtown, Connecticut, are experiencing. I can’t get past that massacre. I can’t move on. I can’t stop cringing at the thought of the next one.

 

While stupid, egotistical, idiotic, morons at the NRA lay blame for Sandy Hook Elementary School everywhere but at the feet of the NRA’s corporate gun sponsors/manufacturers…..even more Americans have died since December 14th, 2012, at the end of a handgun or assault weapon.

 

Then there are your garden variety dumbass Americans who scream “2nd amendment rights” whenever a person falls dead from a gunshot wound. As long as that person that falls dead ain’t nobody they know or love.

 

In case you gun nuts have not read AND comprehended the 2nd amendment, please do so. That 2nd amendment does not give you, garden variety American citizen, the right to bear jack shit, let alone handguns & assault weapons. Go Google 2nd amendment, then read it…and remember…reading comprehension is fundamental.

 

Ok….I’m back to attempting to find this elusive “Christmas Spirit”.

 

I wish you & your family a wonderfully joyous Kwanzaa, Christmas & Hanukkah & a healthy, happy & prosperous New Year.

 

 

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… * , • Merry’ • , * ‘
…* ‘ •♫♫*♥*♫♫ • ‘ * ‘
‘ ‘ • Christmas . • ‘ ‘ ‘
‘ ‘ • ♫♫♫*♥*♫♫♫• * ‘ ‘
…………..x♥x

Namaste.

 

 

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See. I. Am. Trying.

 

Not working.

 

 

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“A Guide to Mass Shootings in America” at Mother Jones

 

 

 

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Will Your Child, Loved One, Family Member Or Friend Be Next?

 

Merry Christmas & A Happy New Year. If You Are Alive.

 

 

 

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25 Responses

  1. I cannot begin to imagine what these families are going through – having lost their loved ones in such a horrific & senseless way.
    On Christmas Eve – we said a prayer for the angels lost & prayed that maybe somehow even without their loves – the families left behind would find some peace in their day with their loved ones left here on earth with them.
    {Hugs}

  2. Dear Jueseppi,
    I wish I could find a way to give you some comfort and solace. The world has so much sorrow. When the weight of it grows too heavy to bear, I force myself to look for a bright spot, and focus upon that. It helps me sleep at night. You are a tender soul and I think you feel more deeply than most. I hope you feel the love too, dear friend. I wish you sound sleep, and sweet dreams, and a better year ahead for everyone. With love, Naomi

  3. I have read all of these messages to you Jueseppi this evening and I have found that they are all messages of love and peace. I am sure the families who have lost their loved ones are also receiving many messages of love. Perhaps those messages, just like these ones for you, will soothe their souls and let them know that love is everywhere …we just need to stop and see it for what it really is and give it the validation it deserves. Doing so won’t reverse what happened but it can help us all grieve, solidify ourselves and begin again…… a little wiser than our last new beginning.

    Take care of yourself my friend. Love to you and yours on this Christmas Day.

    Lorelei

  4. Those of us who care and have compassion for humanity understand and feel what you are going through, Jueseppi. This article may help explain what we feel today. It won’t fill the hole, but it helps to explain what is wrong.

    All I Want for Christmas…

    http://truth-out.org/opinion/item/13520-all-i-want-for-christmas

    • Funny thing about truth out….right below this very powerful story is this line:

      Copyright, Truthout. May not be reprinted without permission.

      Then after that line about permission is a link to e-mail this story to a friend.
      Wouldn’t e-mailing the story to a friend be reprinting it? Un less you’re using braille.

      The story doesn’t do a lick of good if people all over can’t see it.

      I’m going out for a swim in the ocean….ciao bella Ms. Marion.

    • We can share the link, we just cannot reprint the article without permission. So, no, emailing is not reprinting the article.

    • Emailing or sharing the link is not a problem. ;)

  5. (here’s the spell checked version:0)
    You’ve captured the feelings that are void from a good many of us this holiday season. Sadly, I have a feeling that it will not be gone even after the New Year has rolled in. I find myself trying to shake off where my adult children are and if they are paying extra attention to their surroundings as they run here and there. If my 23yr old daughter is texting while driving even a little bit. If she would really take notice if a full costumed man or person would come running or walking quickly into the area where she might be shopping, kicking it with her girls or working at the public health-club just doing her job. Would she notice? Would she be prepared to react the safest way possible? Do we even know what the safest way would be to react, are the companies with public access even thinking or preparing their employees for the possibility of what if? Shouldn’t they be? Of course as a mother I think everyone should be paying close attention and making and taking all kinds of new precautions, doing practice drills and staying highly alert. Of course that’s not happening in most places, but I so so wish I could make that happen. I do believe it would help and if nothing more, it might give some people a bit more awareness as to what options they might have …maybe this is all just wishful thinking and even if it was all in place, would it really settle my nerves? Would it allow us to really feel that ole Holiday Spirit that some of us are truly void of? I don’t honestly know but I will say it would make me feel better than I do now…if I knew more of American was taking extra preparation trainings, drills etc. If my young adult children were thinking like you and I are Mr. Hack.

    So glad I came to visit you here Mr. Hack on this Christmas Day. I feel blessed to know and have you in my life. I say it is okay for us not to feel that familiar ole Holiday Spirit sir, why? Because these times are not the times of that good ole yesterday… Those are times in our past and maybe this will make us all work harder and smarter in our own way to make our today and tomorrows part of the good ole feelings we want to feel and share next week, next month, next year…maybe we’ll dig, scratch, kick and scream until we build and make the America “WE” want to remember…. ya think? I have hope and don’t want to give up on it…I still believe there is more like “us” than there are of “them” and we are stronger, smarter and filled with more heart & Love…I still think the Power of Love overcomes all when used to it’s fullest…and oh yeah, just as important I do believe we must remember to use ALL parts of LOVE including that “Tough Love” stuff too. I say we all need to start now and use “Tough LOVE” by Any Means Necessary!! (Sorry for the long winded comment) love ya!

    • Thank you Ms. Carrots, wish I felt even a tiny bit of Christmas spirit this year.

      …………(¯`O´¯)
      …………*./ | \ .*
      …………..*♫*.
      ………, • ‘*♥* ‘ • ,
      ……. ‘*• ♫♫♫•*’
      ….. ‘ *, • ‘♫ ‘ • ,* ‘
      ….’ * • ♫*♥*♫• * ‘
      … * , • Merry’ • , * ‘
      …* ‘ •♫♫*♥*♫♫ • ‘ * ‘
      ‘ ‘ • Christmas . • ‘ ‘ ‘
      ‘ ‘ • ♫♫♫*♥*♫♫♫• * ‘ ‘
      …………..x♥x

      Namaste my friend

  6. Dear J.B.,I was Ina Debbie Downer mood but I got solace out of going to Mass.The choir and message brought me a sense of tranquility.Peace be with you.

    • …………(¯`O´¯)
      …………*./ | \ .*
      …………..*♫*.
      ………, • ‘*♥* ‘ • ,
      ……. ‘*• ♫♫♫•*’
      ….. ‘ *, • ‘♫ ‘ • ,* ‘
      ….’ * • ♫*♥*♫• * ‘
      … * , • Merry’ • , * ‘
      …* ‘ •♫♫*♥*♫♫ • ‘ * ‘
      ‘ ‘ • Christmas . • ‘ ‘ ‘
      ‘ ‘ • ♫♫♫*♥*♫♫♫• * ‘ ‘
      …………..x♥x

      Namaste Ms. Cassandra

  7. This too has been on my mind all day as my family and I celebrate Christmas. We need to stay on this until major changes are made. How to get there is another issue and this will be a trying battle with those of the hell bent NRA agenda, and rigid anti-government mentality. I was brought up in a family of hunters and watched my Dad clean his gun many times. (He could never shoot a deer though). How could anyone defend the right of those who think they should have assault and multi-round guns? For what purpose do they serve in everyday life? I still haven’t heard a straight answer to that question. Better mental health care and eliminating further sales of these ultra dangerous weapons and also horribly violent video games, should be a priority for the coming year. I know, good luck on changing any of these! However,the blockheads will not budge on this and much has to do with opposition to Pres. Obama. Very petty, very self-serving, and very stupid!
    May we all have peace in 2013 despite ourselves!

    • Yes, May we, in spite of ourselves.

      …………(¯`O´¯)
      …………*./ | \ .*
      …………..*♫*.
      ………, • ‘*♥* ‘ • ,
      ……. ‘*• ♫♫♫•*’
      ….. ‘ *, • ‘♫ ‘ • ,* ‘
      ….’ * • ♫*♥*♫• * ‘
      … * , • Merry’ • , * ‘
      …* ‘ •♫♫*♥*♫♫ • ‘ * ‘
      ‘ ‘ • Christmas . • ‘ ‘ ‘
      ‘ ‘ • ♫♫♫*♥*♫♫♫• * ‘ ‘
      …………..x♥x

      Namaste Ms. Murphy

  8. in all honesty this moment finds my heart wishing yours solace jueseppi… warm hugs and a less rugged passage through the time it’ll take to realize greater degrees of healing for the survivors and yourself.

    …………(¯`O´¯)
    …………*./ | \ .*
    …………..*♫*.
    ………, • ‘*♥* ‘ • ,
    ……. ‘*• ♫♫♫•*’
    ….. ‘ *, • ‘♫ ‘ • ,* ‘
    ….’ * • ♫*♥*♫• * ‘
    … * , • Merry’ • , * ‘
    …* ‘ •♫♫*♥*♫♫ • ‘ * ‘
    ‘ ‘ • Christmas . • ‘ ‘ ‘
    ‘ ‘ • ♫♫♫*♥*♫♫♫• * ‘ ‘
    …………..♥x♥
    Namaste.

  9. I am however disturbed the way … greedy and powerful people are controlling the entire world … By producing too much guns … Guns that people can only do evil with … I can only pray that everlasting father Jehovah will minister unto them himself … so .. that they can stop the production … I pray for internal peace .. love .. and .. joy .. to manifest itself in every individual and families … So as to equally have everlasting joy in our nation and throughout our universe … Amen … I demand this authority with the hope to receive as i am praying in the name of Jesus our Lord and Savior … Amen … As this leap year is winding up … Father .. i am asking for our families to be covered with the blood of Jesus … I want us to be able to continue rejoicing in you in the year 2013 … Amen … I put before you President Barack Obama … Please .. El-Morijah .. endow him with everlasting wisdom and give him victory above all enemies … As you shall continue to protect him and his families … I pray in the name of the father … the son … and the holy ghost … Amen … Hallelujah … Hosanna … Ebenezer … Amen … May the lord Jehovah hear and answer me when i called … Amen …

    On Tue, Dec 25, 2012 at 3:59 PM, folasade Adeluola wrote:

    > > > Merry Christmas dear Jueseppi … Thanks for being my friend … > I was just busy cooking … smiling … > Be cheerful .. We can’t grieve forever … We just have to pray for them > whenever we remember them … Happy holidays dear … > > > On Tue, Dec 25, 2012 at 3:48 PM, “The ObamaCrat.Com” <

  10. Merry Christmas dear Jueseppi … Thanks for being my friend … I was just busy cooking … smiling … Be cheerful .. We can’t grieve forever … We just have to pray for them whenever we remember them … Happy holidays dear …

    On Tue, Dec 25, 2012 at 3:48 PM, “The ObamaCrat.Com” wrote:

    > ** > Jueseppi B. posted: “By Jueseppi B. I have tried to be cheerful > and get into the “Christmas Spirit”. I have decorated trees and strung > lights for some elderly and disabled neighbors back in the states. I played > all my favorite Ch”

    • …………(¯`O´¯)
      …………*./ | \ .*
      …………..*♫*.
      ………, • ‘*♥* ‘ • ,
      ……. ‘*• ♫♫♫•*’
      ….. ‘ *, • ‘♫ ‘ • ,* ‘
      ….’ * • ♫*♥*♫• * ‘
      … * , • Merry’ • , * ‘
      …* ‘ •♫♫*♥*♫♫ • ‘ * ‘
      ‘ ‘ • Christmas . • ‘ ‘ ‘
      ‘ ‘ • ♫♫♫*♥*♫♫♫• * ‘ ‘
      …………..x♥x

      Namaste Ms. Adeluola

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